I'm tired of trying to prove to people that I can do something effortlessly, that I can multi-task and process things at the same time, and that I've been doing that since I was a kid. You study silently, study and review, and say you're playing and not doing anything useful so that people around you will think you're "smarter". It's all about what you want others to see, and putting your happiness in making your parents look good. An "attention begging business".

But your heart never prays for any attention, your soul is focused, introspective, angry but calm. Her focus is the gravitational force that draws the one who truly loves you, and possibly the one who touches the soul ,slowly, to you. I think everyone is very ordinary, very limited, yet so many things.

Time is going to allow me to complete this metamorphosis: to become an extremely "selfish" person, but full of the ability to love. As Phoebe described Fleabag too accurately as:

"This is a love story."

In the year I turned 28, I gave up "proving" anything. I live my life exactly as I see fit, being true to myself. I also do not make any explanations for the decisions I made, just let it happen naturally and then act naturally.

• I want to learn languages
• I want to run 5km daily
• I want to do plank support
• I want to dance
• I want to practice ice skating
• I want to write a book from being a "tailor for books"
• I want to chat with some people new and give up some relationships
• ...

And give everything time.